It’s been written as a continue of this post: Log Curve of LIFE
1: The Middle
In the 21st century, money has taken the place of the Greek gods in ancient Greece. Money is everyone’s favorite. The more you have, the better and easier your life becomes. Of course, being rich can be a privilege, but it isn’t without its drawbacks.
Growing up as middle class in society, I have realized that money isn’t everything, but it works as a tool—like a key—to open any door you want.
2: A Curse
There are moments in our lives when we ask ourselves, Why? and How? And I’m stuck in that moment every day.
Every time I ask my father for money; I feel like a part of my pride and dignity disappears. Sometimes, I wish I were Harry Potter—without a father or mother. But even being him would be a curse. If I can’t deal with my own biological parent, how could I deal with others, like the Dursleys?
3: What Is a Man?
It’s heartbreaking when your parents tell you, “You’re not enough. You’re not capable.”
Tonight, my father told me again: You’re not a man. And if you keep going like this, you won’t become one.
I looked at him and said, “What if I don’t want to be a man?”
Yeah. I don’t want to be a man—not in the way my father defines it. I don’t want a family like ours. I don’t want to become the person they tried to shape me into. I don’t want to be the good son my parents expect me to be.
I just want to be human. I just want to be a good person.
The saddest moment in life is realizing that even your own parents don’t believe in you. But that’s okay. I’ve gotten used to it.
This is life. This is how it works. It fills you with wounds and pain—until the moment it lets you go. Then, you’re dead.
4: Caffeine
So, there’s nothing left for me. I don’t even have enough money to buy a cup of coffee.
I desperately need a job, but I also need time to read and write. I’m stuck.
I’ve tried to cut my expenses however I can, just to afford coffee beans. No more ice cream. No more cakes. No unnecessary supermarket purchases. No chewing gum. No new books—just PDF versions of English books. No going out. No swimming pools. No blah blah. I’ve cut everything, yet my bank account is still empty.
Maybe I should cut myself off from life entirely—to make things easier for everyone.
But no. That’s not the right response.
I will get through this. I just have to keep going. Maybe there’s no solution. The dollar’s value keeps rising exponentially, and life gets harder every day. Maybe this is the time to give up coffee.
It seems that to achieve what you want, you have to give up the things you love.
Caffeine helped me swallow life more easily. It started with coffee, but I know this won’t be the last thing I have to sacrifice. There will be many more things I will have to let go of in the near future.
